My first LOST

Finally it come, what I was expecting a lot early. It was in my break holidays, we had one month holidays and a group of friend of my age we put ourself toguether like a pack of wolves and we made a plan to go to every casino in town to make 20 dollars each person in each casino. Basically we made a Casino tour for ourself with the greed than at least myself never ever had. At that point like I mention before I had around 640 USD, there is no way nobody could stop me to upswing my bankroll up.

This part was very painful at that time, but a lesson of life. I started playing a Saturday night, I went to casino, won 20 USD, went to next one and lost 120 USD. I finished my night loosing my bankroll of that day. It did not matter If I won in one casino, I would loose in the next one, I remember I won in 4 casinos and them lost in the fifth casino. Basically after 6 days not even a week I had only 40 dollars in my pocket. I could said than it was my first time than I got broken, and the saddest part is still three more weeks of holidays and my pockets were empty. From an amazing opportunity it went so wrong, I expected than at some point I was going to loose. But the interesting part is none of my friends could win, all of them lost same as I did. We were a broken guys than could not afford petrol.

We were talking about why we did so wrong, why none of us won, we did asked ourself. We could not understand what did happen. As well as we were going to the casino, we were learning at the some time. I always try to understand why the things can go wrong and blame myself first. I never ever try to blame some one else, I do not want to have a scape goat. I think this is the most important thing I have as a person. If you know yourself, understand what are you trying to do and create an strategy to reach your goal. You can be in the right path. Obviously this little drop in my bankroll and in my head will not stop me, to carry on trying. I evaluate my situation like, how much money I had before start gambling and how much money I have after I lost 6 days in a row. I played over 6 month I built 640 USD dollar before lost most of it, I had expences for my day to day life. Now, I have only 40 dollars. It is not the end of the world.

My approach was very simple, I started with very little probably less than 40 dollars, after few month I still have 40 dollars, I lived 6 month from the profits I had made. I can see than I could said than I have gain experience, “I have learn how to gamble”(I was too positive about it”), how things can go wrong, how things can go well. Basically after all this I needed to take a break. I did regalized than I did not have enough money to play in the casino, as well than my head after this backlash I needed to rebuild myself.